Katie Maloney wasn’t planning on returning to Vanderpump Rules before the overhaul

Even if Vanderpump Rules has not undergone a major overhaul of castings, Katie Maloney says she wouldn’t return for season 12 after all.

“I wasn’t planning on going back,” Katie, 37, revealed on the Wednesday, Dec. 4, episode of her Disrespectful podcast.. “I had made up my mind months ago after last season. I had to get on with my life.”

Katie remembered making the choice before Vanderpump Rules was “put on hold,” adding, “I had spoken to our producers about it and told them my decision about it. I personally felt ready to move on from the show. I felt like my life and where I was was moving in a different direction. Mentally, emotionally, physically, spiritually I was ready to move on from the show.”

After being on the Bravo show after its premiere in 2013Katie was ready for something new.

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“It’s been a long time. I’ve lived many lives and been through so much on this show,” she continued. “It just got to a point where I don’t know if I can live and grow and be the version of myself that I want to be on this show anymore.”

Vanderpump Rules has been a constant presence since it started as a spinoff of The Real Housewives of Beverly Hills and developed into its own hugely popular franchise. As a result of Tom Sandovalaffair with Rachel Lewisthe show immediately picked up cameras to document season 11. However, the episodes were met with mixed reactions, and the show was eventually shelved amid cast tensions.

Bravo confirmed this season 12 last month production begins next year with Lisa Vanderpump and a new group of cast members.

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“The band and the dynamic and what makes the show this show would be hard to do because it was so fractured at the end,” Katie noted on Wednesday. “And a lot of us don’t hang around. There might be people talking to that person or those people hanging out or those two hanging out. But as far as being a cohesive unit, it just doesn’t exist anymore.

Katie was not surprised by this Bravo make some changes in mind Vanderpump Rules “didn’t exist” in the way fans loved him already. Despite her plans to leave the show, Katie is still grieving the experience after more than a decade on screen.

“The finality is surreal. It’s knowing that it’s just not going to be there anymore. It’s final. It’s final,” she continued. “The feeling of being done is still weird. It’s sad. Like closing a chapter is sad no matter what.”

Ariana Madix also spoke for looking on the bright side of the situation.

“I was just relieved that the public was finally aware of the conversations we were having,” Ariana, 39, exclusively said Us Weekly on Tuesday, December 3. “It’s good that this news is out there and yes, now I don’t have to sit here and hold it.”