The Real Housewives of New York star Bryn Whitfield detailed her harrowing sexual assault for the first time – revealing that she is still coming face-to-face with her alleged attacker, whom she has never publicly named or directly accused.
“(In) my 30s I’ve had so many problems, things on my mind,” said Brin, 37 people on Tuesday, December 3. “There are all these things that I had in my head. I have privilege, but sexual assault was not one of them.
She recalled being sexually assaulted by an unnamed man who was described as a New York socialite who had been “wooing” her. Brynn noted that she felt like a “shell of herself” after the accident — and didn’t tell anyone for months.
“You just go home, you just take a shower and you just want to pretend it didn’t happen,” she shares. “I think my water bill was probably about $10,000 … and there’s just not enough soap in the world (to clean). … You try not to put chlorine in your luxury bath.”
Breen noted that she was “literally numb” after the incident and “blamed” herself for what happened.

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Taylor Hill/FilmMagic“I put on a brave face and refuse to cause a scene. I don’t like noise. I don’t like to yell or scream because of my childhood,” Breen said people for continuing to run into his attacker. “I take the check and sign. That’s what I do. That’s all.”
She also spoke candidly about what happened during Tuesday’s episode RONNIE.
“I just felt dumb and embarrassed and blamed myself. It’s like none of this was supposed to happen to me,” Bryn said through tears in her confessional. The Bravo star said her past assault “robbed” her of several experiences – particularly because she never told her late grandmother and avoided talking to her.
“It made me not want to get married. It robbed me of whether or not I could have children,” she continued. “The worst part is that it took my last year with (my grandmother).”
Brynn noted that she felt “like a liar” for the past year.
“Whenever people ask me why i’m aloneI smile and say, ‘Oh, there aren’t enough billionaires in the world,’ or ‘I’ve dated them all,'” she said. “It’s like a knife that keeps going in and I just feel like I’m lying and I want to feel better because it won’t go away and I’m running out of time.”
During it people interview, Brin explained why she wanted to share her experience publicly.
“You have to find a reason in everything. There’s a reason I had to experience this, and honestly, it opened me up,” she says of how the experience has changed her outlook on dating.
“You have to find a reason in everything,” she said. “There’s a reason I had to experience this, and honestly, it opened me up.”
If you or someone you know has been sexually assaulted, contact the National Sexual Assault Hotline at 1-800-656-HOPE (4673).